This is the Bad Version

I directed a short film on Saturday. It was a threadbare production. We had no crew. In some ways, it was sort of a proof-of-concept for a feature film idea a friend and I were developing a few years back.

I wrote it this past week. We shot it over the course of a few hours on Saturday.

I'm not sure how it's going to turn out but it was a fucking amazing experience. I loved getting behind the camera again. I loved working with the actors, running the scene, dismantling the scene, exploring every beat and discovering new ways into every single moment. I loved playing with the framing, playing with the blocking.

It's weird, realizing how much you miss something when you haven't done it in a while. I was anxious going in but when we got going, man... it was like muscle memory, I got right back into it. It was this feeling of, This is what I need to be doing with my life.

This is the one thing I know I should be doing.

I was physically spent afterwards. It felt so good, I was in shock. A day later and I'm still buzzed by how good it felt. I don't know how it's going to turn out right now but I know I needed to do this.